Ok.. You have got to see Saw II.... that's all ... Just have to see it... lol...

I watched The Perfect Man tonight.. and my god did I bawl my eyes out.. That movie hit home for me.. after my divorce it seemed like all I did was move my kids around.. not because I was running from anything. I was trying to do better by them.. I kinda felt like I was in the movie.. lol... and it made me feel so good when my children told me that they understood what I did.. and that they weren't scarred from it.. Now I've been in the same place for over a year now... absolutely love it and love having my children here with me.. even though they are older now and hardly ever here.. It's so empty when they are gone... I cherish every moment I get to spend with them and will drop everything when they say.. Hey mom... wanna do something?...

I know that most mom's feel this way.. but I think I've got the best two children any parent, single or married could ask for... I'm very proud of them and how they have grown into such good people...

All for now...

Night...

Kimberly, You are such a beautiful and special woman that any man would be crazy to pass up. I try not to push my faith on people (that tends to push people away), but your entry about motherhood hits home so close to my heart. It is why I am giving up "powerful" career at age 27 to take 10 years to raise my boys. I missed out on too much of their younger years devoted to proving myself and it only proved to me that my children must come first. It gives me hope that your children understand and I hope mine are as gracious with me as well when they are older. Keep up on keeping your chin up!

Jackee:
It may seem at times that they don't understand or appreciate what you have done for them.. but trust me... It pays off in the end.. and when they are older and still want to hug you and still tell you they love you in front of friends or before getting off the phone... It makes every sacrafice you make/made worth it..The best compliment I think I ever got was when my mother told my children that I did a great job of raising them.. and my son said.. Well of course she did.. She's mom... I can't even put into words how that made me feel. especially when there were times that I had to be tough, and stick to my guns... but now to hear them say "Hey, mom, remember... I'm not on drugs or in jail"... and that they now understand why I said NO when I did. If I could give any other Single mom out there advice.. it is to listen... don't judge what they have to say.. let them speak..it's hard and you don't always agree with them.. but somehow I think that them knowing they are allowed to have an opinion really helped.. I created what I called the "circle" for my kids.. I gave them just enough freedom to remain their friend.. but they knew that if they went out of the circle that they would have to take the punishment.. (which usually meant no car or tv..) I know.. Such a vicious punishment.. lol..
You'll do fine..If you need to chat.. just let me know.. I'll be glad to talk...